Blessed Christmas to all who celebrate!

This morning’s musing:

Sometimes if we’ve had a profound encounter with Divine Love, there’s a tendency to focus backwards in time and try to get back to that place.

But it doesn’t really work.

That focus of looking backwards keeps us reaching in a way that makes us feel separate from it. Divine Love isn’t held hostage somewhere “back there”; it’s beyond space and time, and it never left.

I like to imagine that Christmas could be an invitation to be awake to the birth of this love in every unique moment.

This morning I woke with complicated feelings about the state of the world and things beyond my control. When I went to meditate, my mind was as busy as my instagram feed. So after the bell told me I was done, I spent some time humming, meeting the feelings in my body with a combination of breath, sound, kindness and curiosity.

The feelings didn’t go away — they intensified — as if to say “right here, this is where it hurts.” so I continued.

After about 6 minutes I noticed that I felt deepened and refreshed somehow. I got the idea to record a version of this. It’s made up of piano, vocal humming and toning, piano key thunks, and random kitten pouncing, scampering and purring sounds. You can just listen, or if you like you can hum or tone along.

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I wish you every good thing, and especially that you feel the way you are held by the love that never left.